At 12.50am this morning my Nan, Maureen Collier, passed away. She just wasn't a Nan to me - she was a friend, another Mum and has been a constant in my life for 37 years.
I took this photo of her two months ago - it's not the best one of her, but I think it fitting for a day like today. I saw her after she passed away this morning and unfortunately she didn't look at peace - so I am trying to find ways of remembering what she looked like the last time I saw her. This is the closest photo to it.
She always spoke about a passage in the Bible about God having a room ready for you when you die. Perhaps that's where she is right now - getting all settled, pulling her covers down on her bed and looking forward to reading the paper before going to sleep, the warm orange glow of the lamp and the snoring of a dog keeping her company. Every year she would bring this Christmas set out as a way of her remembering what Christmas is for.
I am still in shock and just so very, very tired. But I wanted to pay homage to Nan on the day her 86 years came to an end.
Love you and kissy kissy, Nan. Keep an eye on us when you can.
ness, i'm so sorry for your loss. there is nothing i can say beyond that beside take plenty of time for yourself and think back on those happy times.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear about your Nan. My grandma died two years ago and I remember that hollow feeling of loss - she had been a part of my life for so long it was unimaginable that she had gone. Take care
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Sorry to hear of the passing of your Nan. My thoughts are with you and your family. xx
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